Hannah

image1

It’s been one month since we announced that we lost our second baby. This past month has been filled with all sorts of emotions. Grief is a very hard thing to explain, especially when it’s a silent grief that no one knows or sees the effects of but you. This is why I share my story. This is why I open up. There are countless women out there who have lost children due to miscarriage that silently suffer. They don’t know how to talk about it, they don’t want to make other people feel awkward, and often outsiders just don’t know how to handle the subject. So it becomes “easier” for everyone else if we just don’t mention it too much. But I have had so many ladies reach out to me thanking me for sharing our story because it has put words to some of their innermost thoughts that they didn’t know how to express. It has helped them know they’re not alone. So I will continue to put our journey out there. I will continue to try to offer encouragement and hope, when all feels hopeless and wasted.

I really debated sharing this publicly for fear of how it would be received. Would other people think it was weird? Would they think I was dwelling too much on our loss? Will they think I’m holding onto something too tightly and in an unhealthy way? I don’t know. I don’t know how it will be received, but I know that I want to put this out there. I want to let others know that it is okay to walk your grief path in the way that YOU need to, not the way that society expects you to. So with that, I want to tell you about our second daughter, Hannah.

We found out we lost Hannah on October 10th, one month ago. At the time, we didn’t know she was a little girl. We just knew we had prayed for a child, the Lord had answered, and then the Lord took her away. It hurt. It caused so many questions, so much doubt, and so much confusion. For someone who grew up in church and with a biblical foundation and loved Jesus with all of her heart, I found myself surprised by how much I was struggling with the goodness and character of God. It’s humbling to even type that for others to read because it often feels shameful to have such doubts, but they have been real and raw, and I’m sure I’m not alone in the questions. See, I’ve known this whole time that God is good and His ways are higher in my HEAD knowledge of the Lord, but it was having a very hard time transferring to my heart and my belief. I felt like there was a roadblock between my head and my heart and I didn’t know how to demolish it. So many prayers, so many tears, so much wrestling with Scripture and conversations with my husband that left me grieving more. I wanted to believe the truth, but it was still SO HARD. More often than not, we have many “why’s?” that we asked God. “Why did you answer our prayers for a baby?”, “Why did you let me believe everything would go as planned?”, “Why did you take this baby so soon?” “Why would you put us through this twice?” —and the list goes on and on. And God, in His sovereignty doesn’t always give us answers to those questions. He builds our faith on His character, on His track record, on His goodness, His faithfulness, His mercy, His provision. He gives us Jesus, and that is ALL we ever need.

But the sweet Lord knew that my heart needed just one of those why’s answered. He knew it would build my faith in Him more this time to give me one answer than to leave me questioning.

At the time of finding out we lost our baby, my doctor asked me if we wanted to do chromosomal testing. My initial thought was, “What good will that do? It doesn’t bring the baby back and it’s not like knowing what happened with this one will prevent a future miscarriage. We can’t control anything so what’s the point in finding out?” But on faith, we said we would have it done, just seeking some sort of answers. Three weeks went by with no explanation and then I received the call. My doctor told me that they DID find something, which turned out to be what brought the peace from God that passes all understanding. She explained to me that our baby was a little girl who was missing a vital chromosome for normal healthy life functions. She would have to receive medical intervention for the entirety of her life. It was then that I KNEW, deep in my heart, that the Lord had been gracious to her. He saved her from a life of severe medical conditions and ushered her into heaven perfectly healed and whole. He chose to heal her sooner rather than later, and for that I am grateful. If her heart had continued beating and she continued to grow in my womb, we would embrace every part of her condition with open arms. We would love her unconditionally despite all of it. Yet, God’s foreknowledge wanted to give her what was BEST -right now- , and now she is enjoying the presence of Jesus, a gift we are HONORED to give her even though our hearts wanted her here with us. We decided to name her Hannah, because it means God is gracious. He was gracious to allow her to be spared of this sin-filled world and immediately be where we all long to be. In the Bible, Hannah live a very unpleasant life for the majority of her time on earth, but through her bitter circumstances, her life produced a son that changed the course of history. Her pain led to even greater joy. We know that if we hadn’t lost our first baby we wouldn’t have Adalynn. If we hadn’t lost Hannah, we wouldn’t know the joy that is to come. It is through trials and suffering that we understand joy and grace so much more clearly. If we never experienced valleys, we wouldn’t know or appreciate the mountain tops.

Does God always give us answers to our why’s? No, He doesn’t. And He may never answer any of my others. At least not all of them. But even if we had never found out details about Hannah’s life, God knew what He was doing. He knew he was sparing her life. He knew he was protecting her. And if we walk this familiar road again one day and never find a reason for any future losses, whether they be children or anything else, we can rest in the fact that God knows exactly what He’s doing, and we don’t have to. It doesn’t take away the pain, and grief is still very much real; but we can rest in the truth of our Savior and in His deep, abiding love for us.

So if you have walked this road, are walking it currently, or find yourself a member of this club in the future, please know you’re not alone. God cares about all of your questions. He is big enough to handle all of your feelings, even if they are too embarrassing to admit to other people. He sees you and He is not going to waste your tears. Walk through your grief. Get to know the Lord in the midst of it. See Him for who He is when you’re at your most vulnerable state. Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face, and the things of this world will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.

Love you all. Thank you for loving us so well.

A Familiar Road

How do you process something you hoped you’d never have to walk through….again?

I don’t know the answer to that, but our family is walking this road. With uncertainty, confusion, frustration, sadness, and brokenness, we are mourning the loss of another baby.

This week we were going to announce that we were expecting another sweet baby in April 2017. Adalynn was SO excited to be big sister. You could ask her “where’s the baby?” and she would immediately point to my belly. We had told all of our family, all the friends we came into contact with, and all of Matt’s coworkers.

jwp-renney-11

Little did we know that a couple of months after sharing the exciting news that we would also have to deliver sad news. On Monday I went in for our 12 week appointment. I went by myself because we had already heard the heartbeat twice and thought we were in the clear. Part of me was a little anxious about going to the appointment by myself, but the Lord clearly told me on Sunday morning as I was thinking about it “Do not fear, for I am with you,” and I realized in that moment I wouldn’t be alone. My friend Chelsea was keeping Adalynn for me, so it really was just me and the Lord. I had such peace. Sitting in the waiting room, waiting for the doctor, getting our financial outline for payments and hospital costs/delivery/etc., all I felt was peace. My worry had wasted away and I was able to rest and wait. As I sat in the back room waiting for my doctor to come in, I was reading through Proverbs 3, part of the devotion from my Bible in a Year plan, and these verses stuck out to me:

“My son, do not forget my teaching, but let your heart keep my commandments; for length of days and years of life and peace they will add to you. Do not let kindness and truth leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. So you will find favor and good repute in the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord will all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.”

I was ready to get the appointment over with and share the good news with the world. But God had other plans. My doctor came in and tried to find the heartbeat…all you could hear was my own. We went to the ultrasound room and I knew right away. The baby hadn’t grown. There was no flicker on the screen and no sound coming from it’s little body. The Lord Jesus was holding our baby.

I will never understand why. I will never “get over” the hurt. We now have more babies in heaven than we have on earth. Somehow we have to try to help our almost 2 year old understand that her baby brother or sister is with Jesus instead of mommy’s tummy. But let me say this loud and clear: God gives GRACE. This pain is so raw and so real, and there are so many questions. There are so many moments where I feel angry and hurt that the Lord would take us on this path again. But He can handle all my feelings and is holding us so tightly in this. We are so unbelievably sad. My husband is grieving. Our family and friends are shocked and probably very uncertain about how to talk about this with us. It’s a messy place. But of this I am certain: This pain will not be wasted. The bigger picture is eternity. This life is so short and so small on the grand scale of things. Our babies are better off than if they had had to endure this sin-ridden world. We WILL see them one day again because Jesus took our sins upon Himself, nailing them to the cross, and conquered death. Because of His resurrection, death does not win. Our babies are ALIVE and well, enjoying the presence of Jesus. Having loved ones in heaven makes it so much more real. It is not an imaginary place of far-fetched ideas and fluffy clouds…it is HOME. And I know I can’t wait to be there.

I just want to say thank you to my friend, Brittany Price, who through her grief of losing her husband, obediently wrote the music that is ministering to my soul so deeply right now. Thank you to the Body of Christ that has swept in and taken us to the throne of grace in prayer, the countless people who have offered to make meals and watch Adalynn so we can rest and process. Each one of you has blessed us tremendously. We know we are loved, and by the way you are honoring our little one’s life, we are blessed.

These pictures are from an announcement photo shoot we did last weekend. It hurts to have this physical reminder of what no longer will be, but I am thankful for the joy on our faces and the fun we had taking them. Thank you Jess Wal Photography for capturing a sweet time for our family.

jwp-renney-14 jwp-renney-17 jwp-renney-18

Please continue to lift us up in the weeks and months to come. I have to have surgery this week and from what I remember from last time, recovery isn’t fun. I’m leaning into Jesus and trusting Him. He is good and kind and worthy to be praised.

jwp-renney-9

Saying “See You Later” to the Whittinghill’s

Editors Note: This post was written over a year ago but never published. Don’t exactly know why, but here it is. Late. What a blessing. 

 

This week has been a bittersweet week as we have had to say “see you later” to our precious friends, Ben and Kayla Whittinghill. For several years now, they have been praying about taking the gospel the New England area and the Lord has opened the doors for it to come to pass now. These friends of ours are probably the most Jesus-loving people you could ever meet. Their hearts have broken for the people of Vermont and so they are following the Lord’s leading and saying YES to moving their family up north. The stories of God’s hand in this transition and the ways He has led and provided for them are amazing, and it is so obvious that this is the time that He prepared for them to go. We are so excited to launch them forward into their mission field, as we join them on the front lines in prayer for God to harvest souls in Vermont. Even though it’s sad to say goodbye, we know that it is worth it for the glory of God in the lives of the people He is going to call to Himself.

image-6

If you would like to learn more about their calling to Brattleboro, Vermont and join with us as we pray for them, please visit Kayla’s blog to hear more of their heart for this mission and to see if there are other ways the Lord may be leading you to join in on His plans for them there.

Ben and Kayla, we love you guys dearly and we are interceding on your behalf. Thank you for being Jesus with skin on to us. May we be equally as broken for the people around us as you are for the people of Vermont. It is my prayer that we will all have a renewed sense of urgency to make the Gospel known to those around us and be ever more aware of our own mission fields exactly where God has placed us.

Can’t wait to visit you guys and hear the stories of the Lord’s faithfulness!

A Different Kind of Thanks

If you were to ask me three weeks ago what kind of post I would be writing for Thanksgiving day, I would have a totally different answer than the one you’re about to read. Nevertheless, I am thankful, and I want you to know why.

A little bit of background story condensed from long to short: In September I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). Along with other symptoms, one of the most concerning to me was the possibility of infertility. At first this news was very overwhelming, but I still had incredible hope. I just knew God would allow Matt and I to have a baby in His perfect timing. I knew it. It just might take a whole lot longer than I originally thought. I doodled this line from the song “Sovereign” by Chris Tomlin and left it in my Bible as a reminder to myself.

photo-4 So imagine our COMPLETE surprise when exactly one month later, I found out I was pregnant! I cried a TON and delivered the news to Matt who also was in complete shock. For a few days! We were so very excited and didn’t waste any time thinking about names and imagining how drastically different our life would look come next June. I was immediately nauseous and couldn’t eat food fast enough. We told our parents and just a few of our closest friends and eagerly, impatiently, waited for our first appointment to hear that precious heartbeat.

The day arrived when we could finally go to our first appointment. I barely slept the night before. I was too excited. Even on the way there Matt couldn’t stop talking about how eager he was to hear the heartbeat and feel the reality of it for himself. I’d say we were not prepared for what the appointment would hold, but that wouldn’t be true. I believe with all my heart the Lord was preparing us the previous three weeks, but we just hadn’t put the pieces together yet. When I should have been 9 weeks and 2 days, our baby was only measuring 6 weeks. Our doctor gently and compassionately said the words no parents ever want to hear… “Crimson and Matt, I’m so sorry, your baby doesn’t have a heartbeat.”

I felt like my world froze. All I can see when I think about that moment is that beautiful picture of our little baby peanut on the screen and all I can feel is Matt’s arms wrapped around me. Our baby had already entered into heaven before we ever got to see him or her. Before we ever heard that precious heartbeat. And yet, for a reason only able to be explained as the grace of God, there was peace.

I cried heavier tears that day than I ever have before. I felt more grief than I can even explain. It’s amazing how a six week old little life can have SUCH an impact on you. Yet in the midst of all of it, I’ve never been more thankful.

Never before have I ever been SO thankful for:

…my selfless, gentle, sweet, servant-hearted husband who loves me with nothing held back and has been there during this season every single second, even though he’s been grieving as well.

…the body of Christ who has blown us away with their generosity and the giving of themselves and their time.

…family and friends who are legitimate prayer WARRIORS. Whose prayers have literally carried us to the throne where we’ve been able to find hope and healing.

…kind, compassionate doctors and nurses who ALWAYS referred to our baby as a baby and understood that this life was precious and his or her loss is meant to be grieved.

…bosses who understood and let me take all the time off I needed when it was most important.

…vulnerable and transparent women who have gone before me and walked this same path, who have willingly opened up their old wounds in an effort to help me with my fresh ones.

See, if you had asked me three weeks ago what I planned on blogging about on Thanksgiving, I would have whispered, “That’s when we’re going to announce to everyone that we’re pregnant!!!” attaching a sweet sonogram picture and letting the world know we were parents.

But today, instead of announcing that we’re pregnant, I’m announcing that God is good, and His plans for us are good. He is holding our first child in His arms, and they are safer there than they ever would have been in ours. I’m announcing that the arms of Jesus are loving and filled with grace upon grace, and that they hold longer and tighter than anyone or anything on this earth could. I’m announcing that we are THANKFUL the Lord chose this path for us to walk. We are HOPEFUL for the future, and we are TRUSTING in Jesus’ master plan, which is far better than anything we could have put together ourselves. I’m announcing that suffering for the advancement of the Gospel, no matter what that looks like, is worth it.

Are we still grieving? Absolutely. Are we still hurting? Every day. But in the midst of it all, we are fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is sitting down at the right hand of the throne of God (Hebrews 12:2).  He is LIFE. He is HOPE. And because He lives, I know our baby lives, and we will meet them one day in heaven where there will be no more sorrow, no more grief, no more tears. We will worship the Lord together, who is worthy to receive all the glory and all the praise. And for that, I am thankful.

IMG_0195

If you or anyone you know is suffering and grieving in any way, please refer them to this video. It has ministered to me countless times and I pray it will do the same for you.

Even If

image-5

 

 

This morning I was so encouraged by the new mercy I received from the Lord. You know how sometimes He just seems to grab your attention in a new way that will stick with you forever? Well that was me this morning. On my way into work I was just spending some time praying with God and felt like He was probing me with the question, “Will you still praise me even if ____________?” Honestly, you could fill in that blank with anything. Even if your life doesn’t look like how YOU plan it to look? Even if you feel stuck? Even if you receive bad news from a family or friend? Even if you don’t understand? Even if it doesn’t look like there’s a light at the end of the tunnel?

It’s a question we all have to ask ourselves at some point or another. But I believe that in the asking, we are able to get real honest, and then ask the Lord to help us in our unbelief; to be faithful when we are not; to give us faith in the midst of doubt. And He will. His mercies are new every morning. And just like Psalm 5:12 says, “…but it is You who blesses the righteous man, O Lord, You surround him with favor as with a shield.”

When we take refuge in God, He shelters us with His lovingkindness. We can sing for joy at the work of His hands. We can praise him “Even if.”

Doing a New Thing

This post is going to be short and sweet. I just wanted to share a new thing the Lord is doing in my heart. As a recap, Matt and I have been feeling very busy for the past two years. He started working 60+ hours a week during football and lacrosse season, and I have been working full time as well. We’ve been very involved with our Sunday School class and teaching high school Sunday School as well. We’ve also bought a house and been working on getting unpacked and settled in. We’ve travelled a whole lot for weddings and seeing family. It’s been crazy!

Unfortunately, when we get busy, we tend to drop things. The most important things. Like spending quality time with the Lord and investing in our relationship with Him. We began feeling convicted that everything was taking priority over sitting and allowing ourselves enough time to hear from the Lord. So we’ve had to look at our schedules and our lives and ask where we can create some margins.

It was hard. But after many months of prayer and talking through it, the verse God kept bringing me back to was “be still and know that I am God.” I think I do well with the whole “know that I am God” part, but it’s the “be still” I’ve been missing, and therefore essentially have been missing out on really knowing God. As a result, we’ve decided to step down as Sunday School teachers. It was a super hard decision because we both LOVE it so much. But we began to feel like we weren’t able to give our best to the students because we weren’t feeding ourselves with the Word first. It’s impossible to give to someone else what you don’t possess yourself. So we are taking a break from teaching in order to really focus on our relationships with the Lord foremost, and then on quality time in our marriage next. The Lord is so faithful and has been so good to us, so we don’t want to miss out on all that He has for our lives by being so distracted by our normal “routine.”

I’m SO excited for this next season with the Lord and with my husband. One of our friends called it, “addition by subtraction,” and that’s exactly what it is. By subtracting something in our schedules, we’ve been able to have some margins to add really spending time with the Lord and with one another. I can honestly say that in the few short weeks since we decided to step down, we have already seen such spiritual breakthrough. I am amazed at the Lord for the way He honors obedience. I’m so thankful that His guidance was clear and that He continues to affirm that this was His leading in our lives.

I would encourage any of you who may be feeling the same way (like you don’t have any spare moments), to take a good look at your schedule and sincerely ask the Lord if He wants to move some things around. Maybe He does, maybe He doesn’t. Maybe He just wants you to give your schedule to Him and trust Him with the results. Whatever the outcome, I know you won’t be disappointed if you do what He asks you to do. He is faithful. Take some time to enjoy Him and find that out first hand!

Practicing Gratefulness

image-4

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. When you buy a new house, there is a constant battle that goes on in your mind with all of your new wants, and striving to be content with what you have. It’s a natural thing to want to furnish a home and set it up as cozy and comfortable as possible. And there’s nothing wrong with that as long as you don’t start to idolize those desires. It’s been a fun process of deciding what’s most important to buy first and what things can wait.

Matt and I decided living room furniture was next on the list because we currently have one couch in our living room (that we dearly love) but that doesn’t leave a lot of room for guests to sit if we have them over. We’ve joked about having a BYOCC (Bring Your Own Camping Chair) policy if people want to sit anywhere but the floor or squished on the couch when they come over. So needless to say, we were so excited about saving up our money and buying new living room furniture.

Well……..we can dream right? Turns out our cars were feeling a little under the weather and needed to be taken care of. Unfortunately, they are rather needy cars and don’t settle for minor fixes. They require a lot of attention when they decide to stop working properly, leaving us with a major hole in our emergency fund. All that goes to say, the money that we thought was going to go towards new furniture has now been invested into our cars, so the BYOCC policy will have to remain in effect for a little while longer while we re-save.

SO, tonight I made a little chalkboard sign to remind us to be grateful. Because so often we can look at these circumstances and get really bummed out. So we needed a visual reminder to look on every day that we have been incredibly blessed.

To name a few things:

  • First and foremost, we have Jesus. The author and finisher of our faith who provides for our every single need.
  • Each other. God has blessed us with a wonderful marriage and a 2-year wedding anniversary coming around the corner.
  • Our family. We have the most incredible support system on both sides.
  • Our friends. God has given us lifelong friends that sharpen, encourage, and challenge us. As well as just making life fun.
  • Our church. We have an amazing church that preaches the Word and really lives like the Body of Christ.
  • A brand new house with a one year warranty on everything.
  • A vacation coming up that we’ve saved for for 6 months and is already completely paid for. Hallelujah.
  • The cars that we do have, no matter how problematic they may be, are both paid in full.
  • Food. We’re never without food or access to food.
  • Our health.
  • Our jobs and the fact that Matt’s on summer vacation!

AND about a billion more things. We are blessed. So when it comes down to it, gratitude really does turn what we have into enough. It changes our perspective and encourages us to use what God’s given us to be a blessing to others.

So tell me, what are you thankful for? How do you practically practice gratitude? I’d love to hear some of your ideas!

Want vs. Contentment

I like stuff. I like clothes, shoes, accessories and gadgets. And even more recently added to the list is HOME DECOR! I absolutely LOVE home stuff. Furniture, paint, organizing systems, wall art, throw pillows, etc. You name it, and it’s probably on my giant “Home Wish List” on my phone. I think I’ve always known this about myself, but with the purchase of our first home, the desire to accumulate all this “stuff” has hit me full force, almost to the point where I feel blindsided by it. I genuinely want my house to feel organized and welcoming, and in my worldly mind, I feel like the more I can buy/DIY to help me in that endeavor, the better!

But here’s my problem. I know that no matter how much I buy or paint or decorate, it’s not going to satisfy my desire for “more.” And that’s the battle I’ve been feeling recently. I know there is nothing wrong with having a beautiful home or with owning material possessions. But I know there IS a problem when I let those material possessions own me. As Christians, we know we are to be content because God has given us more than we could ever ask or imagine in His Son, Jesus. And we also know that God has given us everything pertaining to life and godliness (2 Peter 1:3). Not to mention, we know that if the heavenly Father feeds the birds of the air and clothes the lilies of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is gone, He will much more take care of our needs! (Matthew 6). But yet, we are still prone to worry and fret, even though our heavenly Father has NEVER neglected our needs.

Ergo, this battle of wanting more versus my striving for contentment ensues. So how do I combat these two opposing desires? One way for sure, is to practice gratefulness. The more I practice being thankful for all the things the Lord has given me and blessed me with that I do not deserve, the easier it becomes to let go of some of those material possessions because I realize how abundantly blessed I am. I have not mastered this. It is an ongoing battle. But I am grateful to God for bringing it to my attention that I may not be swept up in the “American Dream,” focusing on all the stuff and remembering all the riches that I have in Christ.

“But godliness is actually a means of great gain when accompanied by contentment. For we have brought nothing into the world, so we cannot take anything out of it either. If we have food and covering, with these we shall be content. But htose who want to get rich fall into temptation and a snare and many foolish and harmful desires which plunge men into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all sorts of evil, and some by longing for it have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. But flee from these things, you man of God, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, perseverance and gentleness.” (1 Timothy 6:6-11)

proverbs30

[link to original image]

You Wear the Victor’s Crown

This past Sunday at church, the beautiful and talented Abby Hoenstine sang a song that blew my mind. I had never heard it before and it seemed like every word pierced my heart. I haven’t been able to get it out of my head since, so I thought I would share it with anyone who wasn’t there and, like me, might not have heard it before.

The name of the song is “Victor’s Crown” by Darlene Zschech. Amazing.

You are always fighting for us
Heaven’s angels all around
My delight is found in knowing
That You wear the Victor’s crown
You’re my help and my defender
You’re my Saviour and my friend
By Your grace I live and breathe
To worship You.

At the mention of Your greatness
In Your Name I will bow down
In Your presence fear is silent
For You wear the Victor’s crown
Let Your glory fill this temple
Let Your power overflow
By Your grace I live and breathe
To worship You.

Hallelujah
You have overcome, you have overcome
Hallelujah
Jesus You have overcome the world.

You are ever interceding
As the lost become the found
You can never be defeated
For You wear the Victor’s crown
You are Jesus the Messiah
You’re the Hope of all the world
By Your grace I live and breathe
To worship You.

Hallelujah
You have overcome, you have overcome
Hallelujah
Jesus You have overcome the world.

Every high thing must come down
Every stronghold shall be broken
You wear the Victor’s crown
You will overcome, you will overcome.

At the cross the work was finished
You were buried in the ground
But the grave could not contain You
For You wear the Victor’s crown.

Hallelujah
You have overcome, you have overcome
Hallelujah
Jesus You have overcome the world.

Every high thing must come down
Every stronghold shall be broken
You wear the Victor’s crown
You will overcome, you will overcome.

original lyrics source

With Easter just a few days away, I am so thankful for the freedom to focus on the Cross of Christ and His glorious resurrection. Jesus’ death paid the penalty for our sins. His burial confirms the finality of the end of sin for all those who put their trust in Him. His resurrection is HOPE for life, freedom from sin and life everlasting. The Gospel. So pure. SO beautiful. I’m so grateful to God for rescuing me out of the domain of darkness and leading me into everlasting life. Don’t let Easter pass you by this year. Spend some time meditating and celebrating the cross and the redemption that we have received in Jesus. He is WORTHY.

Dedicating Our House

About a month ago we went and dedicated our house to the Lord by writing Scripture on the walls and praying for all that would enter our home. We really want everyone who enters our home to feel the love of the Christ and to be exposed to His hospitality. We felt the best way to remind ourselves of our main objective in owning a home would be to write the Word of God on the beams and foundation of our home so that we will always remember the center of our home is Jesus.

“You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. These words, which I am commanding you today, shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your sons and shall talk of them when you sit in your house and when you walk by the way and when you lie down and when you rise up. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand and they shall be as frontals on your forehead. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.” -Deuteronomy 6:5-9

IMG_0557

We wrote these verses on the walls of our master bedroom to remember that we are responsible to die to ourselves daily and to exhibit this kind of love to one another and all those we invite into our home.

IMG_0564

IMG_0565

IMG_0576

IMG_0582

IMG_0585

IMG_0572

As the leader of our home and the spiritual head of our household, Matt wrote these sweet verses at the entrance of our home. I’m so thankful to have a husband who truly desires for his household to serve the Lord, Jehovah, the living God.
We are currently TWO WEEKS away from closing on our house!! I can barely contain my excitement. Every time we go up to visit our house I literally squeal with delight at all the progress that has been made. At this point, dramatic changes are happening EVERY DAY! It’s so fun watching it all come together. Thanks, everyone for your continued excitement and prayers on our behalf! We can’t wait to host you in our new home!